why you come back here...........

Apa yang bakal lo lakuin jika seseorang dari masa lalu lo dateng saat lo belum bener bener bisa ngelupain dia? Saat lo kesepian?

Itu yang gue rasain sekarang, gue kenal dia hamper dua tahun yang lalu. Kenal dan belum pernah ketemu. Mmsan, Smsan, telpon2an and I know I’m in love with him…Terlalu mudah? Whatever. Toh yang gue tau gue sayang sama dia, dan akhir desember tahun lalu kita jadian. Tapi apa yang terjadi selanjutnya? Dia menghilang, sms gak dibales, telpon gak diangkat. Gue sadar satu hal. DIA CUMA MAIN MAIN. Baik lahh….i’m back from da dream. Balik kedunia dimana gue bisa bertahan tanpa dia. Beberapa bulan kemudia dia mulai ngubungin gue lagi. Gue lega karena dia masih inget sama gue, meski gak seperti yang gue harepin tapi seenggaknya gue tau dia baik2 aja. Gak terlalu menyakitkan karena gue gak punya kenangan sama dia. Gue gak kenal dia sebaik dulu. Yang gue tau dia juga udah gak kenal gue sebaik dulu. But gue musti ngakuin I’m still love him. Bahkan saat gue bersama orang orang yang begitu sayang sama gue. Sampai mereka juga pergi karena gak mampu bertahan dengan keidiotan gue.

Long distance ngebuat gue perlahan mulai bisa ngelupain dia. Tapi beberapa hari yang lalu dia dateng kali ini tersenyum dan berdiri di hadapan gue. Disaat yang sama gue bener bener lagi sendiri. Gak punya siapapun yang bisa gue jadiin pegangan buat gak kembali terjatuh dan memikirkan dia. Gue bingung, keinginan buat ngedapetin dia muncul lagi, what must I do?

Bahkan ketika gue tau dia gak pernah ingat kalo gue pernah memiliki dia. Tapi gue punya banyak pilihan, ngelupain dia dan kembali ngejalanin semuanya sendiri. Ngomongin semuanya dan minta penjelasan, lupain kebegoan gue dulu dan mulai dari awal lagi…..

Tapi siapa yang bias menipu hati? Gue nggak. Gue tau gue masih sangatsangatsangat ngarep bisa sama dia. Gue pengen ngomongin semuanya tapi caranya?? Gue nggak yakin dia bakal dengerin.

This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time You burned me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I've seen it all and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone

This time all I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away...

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift
I didn't think could be real.

To know that you feel the same
As I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream.

You do something to me
That I can't explain.
So would I be out of line
If I said
I miss you?

I see your picture
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow
Next to mine.

You have only been gone ten days
But already I am wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know
That I care
And I miss you.